Well, we've finally had an offer accepted for the house - I got a bit upset yesterday to be honest after our first THREE offers weren't accepted... so in the end I just said to J that he should sort it out, and that I didn't want to know about any more rejected offers. I don't KNOW what the final offer was, that they finally accepted, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was the full asking price. Bit of a shame, because it would have been nice to have the bit of money spare for the solicitor and surveys, etc.
Hopefully things can move very quickly, and we'll be in the new house within a few months!
I just want to say thank you to Helen for the lovely comment in my notes. She commented on the dream I had where I threw my baby across the room in anger, saying we often dream of our worst fears, and the fact that hurting my baby is one of my worst fears means that I would do anything in my power to make sure I never hurt my baby. I really hope that's true, and appreciate the fact that people who know me best in the world think I would make a good mother. Because I know that broodiness isn't what makes a good mother... When I have children, I really want to be the best possible mother I can be to them...
I feel reading Alice's diary has helped me somewhat in that, although there are some things I know I wouldn't do for my children that she does for hers, I respect her choices and anyone who reads her diary can tell what a devoted, kind, and overall wonderful mother she is to her children. She uses cloth nappies for her children, and to be honest I never thought about it til I started reading her diary, but they do sound good... and will DEFINITELY research into it when I get pregnant. The one thing she says she will do that I wouldn't is homeschool. But I have no doubt in my mind that that's what's best for HER and her children, and even admire her for that, but it's just something I wouldn't do ;) I'd probably appreciate the time to myself during the day. And there's a school nearby the house, so hopefully it'll be okay.